Monday, July 05, 2010

Bloggy and personal thoughts

So, I've been on vacation for three whole weeks. It feels sort of like forever, really. I spent some of my time thinking about this blog and where I want it to go.

I want to use this to show my creative work, but at the same time, I know that there are so many other blogs out there with the same goal, the same crafts, the same point. Why should I add one more to the mix? Why should I clutter the "blogosphere" (I hate that word, really. *sigh*) with yet more shouting about me me me?

I haven't come to any final decisions, but I've come to a few realizations. One of them is that there are parts of me, facets which are important, but about which I don't talk. Some of this reticence is that I live in a country which is increasingly at odds with a large part of my self-identification, and one that reacts very strongly (and often very negatively) to this identity.

I'm an atheist. I ... just don't believe in gods, of any sort. I was raised this way; this is as much my family tradition as anyone raised in any religion out there. I've thought about it, as an adult, but I just don't understand any other point of view.

This is not to say that I think everyone should do it My Way - I am happy for people to believe whatever they want to believe as long as no one gets hurt in the process. I honestly have many very good friends who are deeply religious, in more than one faith.

However, I find myself unwilling to mention my lack of belief. I've done it once or twice and had universally bad experiences. Some have been more amusing than others, I'll admit.

Once, in a class, religious affiliation came up and I said that I am an athiest. After explaining that this means I don't believe in god and answering several questions, I sat whilst most of the class stared at me, their faces showing varying degrees of confusion or dismay. Finally, one man said, in tones of deep consternation, "But you believe in Jesus Christ, right?"

When I said that I didn't, in fact, believe in Jesus Christ, he insisted that I must believe in god, though, right? I ... sort of didn't know what to say. For this man, there was no way to comprehend lack-of-faith.

One thing that confuses me about this - the reactions to my atheism - is that people often get offended by my atheism, but expect me to not be offended at their theism. Shouldn't it go both ways? Shouldn't they be as accepting of my way of thinking as they want me to be of theirs? It's as if my lack of faith is a personal attack on them, and that bothers me. Another thing that bugs me about this is that I feel social pressure to keep quiet, so I don't offend people; it seems to me that atheism is stigmatised and thought of as a dirty secret.

I'm not going to write much about this - I'm not interested in blogging about atheism. Or theism, really. Just, recently I've been reading more craft blogs and it seems that many of them are equally about their religious beliefs as they are about their crafting activities.

Part of why I don't talk about this much is that it's ... not a part of my life in the way that religious observation is a part of the lives of those who are practicing theists. I don't spend time thinking about my faith or connection to immanence, nor do I spend time in religious buildings, working on religious organizations or teaching in religious groups. The time that theists spend on that, I'm spending on other things, activities which I do discuss, think about, plan for and create during.

Anyway, I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to do with this blog. I know that I'll still make things every single day, I know that I'll continue to find new things to make and new creative activities to try...

I'd like to post more often, and to post more pictures of my ongoing projects, so I think that's what I'll concentrate on for now.

In other news, I've started a companion blog to this one: SongBird in Flight. It's got my trip notes (but no pictures, because I started it during the trip and haven't put any pictures in yet!) and I'll be keeping up with my personal life there, I think.

Now, it's time to figure out what we need, grocery-wise, then go out and get foods for meals for the next few days.


1 comment:

Duck Squared Goose said...

I'm also an atheist (as well as a crafter).

I can completely empathize.

Keep up the good work and the free thinking!